There is not a moment when I don’t miss my dear Mum. I thought I would learn to live with out her. Really after five years it seems worse. I have good friends and Karen that was my mums cleaner. She thought that when mum died she would have to leave. Instead she helps me not just cleaning but much more to support me. Very rare I see my own family, all to busy. 6 months after mum past I gave up my job and have lived on my personal pension. This July I get my state pension and hopefully keep well and fit to just enjoy life.